We took a break from working out today (except for our walks at work) which I was actually pretty grateful for. My back has been giving me issues and when you couple that with the 5th - 9th of the month and you get a pretty exhausted chick. However, even with being "lazy" this evening I still find myself with quite a bit more energy than I typically have on a Friday night at 8:30.
Now keep in mind that this energy is simply me sitting on the edge of the couch dancing around like an idiot, while I read, work on my new workout playlist, and blog. This seems to be attracting side glances from a husband who probably thinks that I've lost it.
This is because he can't hear the music. Why can't he hear it, you ask? Because tonight is is the Minnesota Vikings first preseason game, so the TV has been commandeered.
This is perfectly fine with me because of the most awesome headphones in the world. In the past month I have developed a new found love for my headphones and iPad/iPhone. A few months ago I ordered a pair of Bluetooth headphones for my last job. I was cloud on 9 when I took them to work on the first day. I didn't feel tethered to my desk, I didn't have to take one ear out every time I wanted to get up, and I didn't drag my phone off my desk and into the floor face down every time I moved. Plus I could talk on the phone through them!
Why did it take months for it to occur to me that this now meant I could, literally, have my music with me at all times?
Who knows? I never claimed to be that bright.
But better late than never, right? Now I have them on everywhere I go. I wear them while I'm at the grocery (my fave!) I wear them while I'm cleaning the house. I where them while I work out. I work out when Cliff wants to watch the preseason. Work is a given. It's just fantastic.
So...back on topic. While I did not work out today, I am definitely looking forward to waking up (at MY designated time, thankyouverymuchSaturday) and finishing out week 2 of C25K v2.0. I never thought that I would look forward to exercising (or miss it!). I must say that the last month has been a real eye opener for me. The last time that I lost weight (375lbs - 325lbs and then 325lbs - 262lbs and then back to 311lbs) we worked out twice, sometimes three times a week, but kept the same activity level at home and at work. Since we had so much weight to lose, it was easy for us to drop quite a bit by just monitoring calories and doing a small amount of exercise.
This time it's different. This time I'm going all the way and I'm never going back.
I am not on a diet. This is my life now. This is how I want to live.
It's a very liberating feeling to have. I'm scared of the work and I'm scared of the pain, but I'm far more frightened of living one more day like this.
I'm already noticing little differences. Things seem to take less effort, my clothes don't seem quite as snug, my face is clearing up, and my stomach doesn't constantly hurt.
Actually, when I lay it all out like that, it seems like a lot more than just little differences.
It feels so amazing to finally be following through with so many things that I've only ever daydreamed about. I've maintained this lifestyle for a little over a month and not once have I felt like I was missing out on anything. That was a feeling that I constantly had before I started this journey. My size has always limited my ability to do the things in life that I enjoy (or think I would enjoy). Compared to that, a Quarter Pounder doesn't seem nearly as appealing anymore.
But half a BBQ sandwich on a ciabatta bun does!
"Your body hears everything your mind says."
Naomi Judd
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